Going along with my “Just Say Yes” principle for traveling in India, and perhaps now for life as well, I was invited by some friends I made in Tiruvannamalai to go with them to Amma’s ashram in Kerela. A stammering “maybe” followed by a “yes” emerged and a 2 hour taxi, a 12 hour sleeper train, and a 20 minute rickshaw later I find myself here at Amma’s ashram. Many of you may know of her, but if not, she is commonly referred to as “The Hugging Saint,” having hugged in the area of 30 million people over her lifetime. She does so tirelessly, sometimes 20 hours/day.
Anyway, I write because I had decided to not get a hug from Amma (they call it Darshan here) on my first day because I wanted to simply settle in first and get a feel for the place. So last night I went to sleep (sharing a room with two friends, Paul and Marcus from England) and in the middle of the night I had a dream. I didn’t remember it until I was walking to breakfast this morning, but in my dream I received Darshan from Amma and it was very powerful. In the dream I was being hugged by Amma and I was thinking that this is OK but that it didn’t seem like anything special. She then squeezed me tightly and held me for a long time and while she did so, there was an explosion of energy between our hearts accompanied by an incredibly brilliant white light, which settled into a light yet rich blue.
This morning, it feels to me like a deep love has passed between us and that there is a much more open space, physically, where my heart dwells in my chest. There is also more of an ease in my heart and less guardedness. I spent some time meditating in the temple this morning and tears came more easily than usual. I feel the need to rest a little in this place to integrate what happened last night. I got my Darshan token so I could have an actual hug from Amma today, but my heart tells me that I already was hugged by her and perhaps there is no need for anything more. The path of miracles unfolds again, and always they seem to come from the “yes.”